Monday, April 19, 2010

Stupid F*ing Hormones!

I'm not feeling very chatty. Just pissed.

I felt everything that pointed to pregnancy. EVERYTHING! Even the freakin' brown implantation bleeding which I've never seen before, ever.

And now my stupid period appears to be here.

I was so hopeful. There were 35 million sperm! 35 million! 3x better than we've ever had.

I don't want to go back to cynical. I want to be able to stay hopeful. But right now I'm just really sad. Sad for me, and sad for Mr. P. He puts this all on himself, and I just hate that. I just hate this whole damn thing.


  1. HUGS!!!! I am so sorry. I gave myself a few days, Dr. Pepper and ice cream to get over the cynicism.

  2. I am so sorry. I am sending you big warm hugs!

  3. Yuck.. IF seriously bites. *hugs*

  4. My hubby blamed himself every time too. Makes it that much harder to cry and bitch if they think it's aimed at them - even when it isn't. :(

    I am so sorry it didn't work this time.